Staying focused

After we went to the geneticist, my mind began to RACE with questions, thoughts, emotions, etc.

Aaron and I are just overwhelmed with "what if" right now.

IF she does, in fact, have Peters Plus Syndrome

IF she has a genetic problem

IF there is something else

IF I have missed something in all the BEGGING for tests

IF I have failed Lilah in some way

IF I can do MORE to help her

Will a "diagnosis" ever change our LOVE for Lilah? NO. NEVER.

I want to know what, if, how, when, how much, what to do, when to do, etc. so Lilah will get what she needs. I NEED to know how to help her.

After all the emotions I began to realize that I am NOT trusting with my whole heart.

I want and NEED to know "what and if" so I can steer Lilah on the right path...

But.. I also NEED to stay focused on what is REALLY important.

THAT...

is

continuing to LOVE Lilah for who she is...

and

Do the best I can.

I look at Lilah and see LOVE, peace, strength, beauty, and I see God.

Little glimpses of heaven rolled into my beautiful baby girl.

We went to the park the other day and I watched Lilah as she was swinging...

She is happy.

She is LOVED.

She is beautiful.

She is patient.

She is AMAZING.

We are SO blessed.

Thank you God for Lilah!